So today is the first day of the month ahead that Boon is offshore.
And it proved to be the toughest offshore job he's ever been on.
Internet is extremely limited and slow. So no whatsapp, iMessage or any sort of mobile communication for the both of us. Only occasional e-mails whenever the Internet decides to be nice, and phone calls via the public satellite phone which everyone uses on board.
Back to the days where we anticipate hearing each other's voices again. He called about 4-5 times today because he was bored and work hasn't officially started yet, and he said because he missed me.
I had it all together the whole day. Started off the day running errands, delivering orders for Chiq Fliq, and had a great afternoon lunching with my pastor and his family, and spent the day chatting, getting inspired and motivated by my leader. I had it all together.
Until I got home, and he called. Asked him what he's been doing the whole morning. He said he did nothing much. Cos there's simply no work yet, no Internet, and nothing much that he can do.
Throughout our multiple phone conversations the entire day, the thing that he said to me the most is, 'Are you ok?', 'Dear if possible, don't stay alone too often okay. Go and hang out with people. Just don't be alone. I think it'll really help. I know it isn't nice to be all alone because that's how I've been feeling, and I don't want you to feel that way at all.'
'The thing that frustrates me the most is the thought that you cannot contact me whenever you need me. I won't know how you're doing. If possible, whenever you can, just drop me an email telling me you're fine okay?'
I lost myself at that point. Stayed silent for a while, and he immediately sensed that I was crying.
In his state right now with so many factors that bother him, the thing that bothers him the most is that I can't contact him whenever I need to.
'I never thought that this would be so tough. This is the hardest it's ever been for me. Don't know why. I think being married with you plays a big factor.'
'I think sitting here with the phone would be my favourite part of the day. Hearing your voice really brightens me up. If I could touch your face, it'd be so much better.'
'I miss you so much. The only thing now that helps me feel better is to watch This is Why.'
I laughed, and said probably he'll see more of Ming and Vanes than me in it. And I asked if he could stream from YouTube. He said, no. He downloaded all the episodes in his laptop before he went offshore.
Dear me, I'm writing this down so that I won't forget just what a wonderful man I married.
In case we quarrel in the future, I just gotta read this again and be reminded of how lucky I am to have someone who is so selfless. Who puts me above himself. He inspires me to do the same.
I'm lucky indeed.
Lord, You're so good to me.